Paper Cuts

Even more Memes

2009-12-31T01:48:31Z

Where did you begin 2009?
My House, in a but of misery.

What was your status by Valentine's Day?
Single.

Were you in school (anytime this year)?
Lots and lots of college.

How did you earn your money?
Games Stop and Commissions.

Did you have to go to the hospital?
Narp.

Did you have any encounters with the police?
Well..not bad encounters? I rear ended a cops daughter but there was Zero Damage to either car, so her dad looked at it and was like "WELL, looks fine! Glad everyones ok C:"
And my RAD instructors were cops..

Where did you go on holiday?
My Brothers House...and Florida.

What did you purchase that was over $1000?
Pffff I dont have that kind of money

Did you know anybody who got married?
This year...? No. narp.

Did you know anybody who passed away?
Nope.

Have you run into anybody you left high school with?
A few times, my friends and a couple random people I could have lived without seeing.

Did you move anywhere?
Kind of? My family moved to the beach/Phili but i'm technically still in the same place, even though none of my stuff is there.

What sporting events did you go to?
Wake Forest Football!!!

What concerts/shows did you go to?
Fallout Boy/Cobra Starship. Blue October. NIN/JA/SSSC

Are you registered to vote?
Yuuup

Where do you live now?
Winston-Salem, NC

Describe your birthday.
I was at Animazement in Raleigh NC, hanging out with some awesome people, Chilling at kobacake 's artist Alley table, and texting Quint, who was in germany >m>

What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2009?
I'd rather not say?

What has been your favourite moment?
Scarowinds with Quint haha

What's something you learned about yourself?
That I have trust issues worse than i ever imagined.

Any new additions to your family?
Nope

What was your best month?
April

What music will you remember 2009 by?
Blue October and Pendulum.

Who has been your best drinking buddy?
pfff, Dan and Nikki

Made new friends?
YES<3

Best new friend?
Dikki. i'm making them one person.

Favorite night out?
Presidents Ball or Scarowinds.

Any regrets?
One huge one..

--

What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Dating. HA.

Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't make any, so I doubt it.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope

Did anyone close to you die?
Nope

What countries did you visit?
none, for once..

What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Emotions.

What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
january 1st. if you don't know why, get out.
and...April 5th..which..uhm, not going into either.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
No idea

What was your biggest failure?
Its personal.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yeah I got sick a few times.

What was the best thing you bought?
no idea

Where did most of your money go?
food, gifts.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Movies! lots of movies.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) Happier or Sadder? Happier
b) Thinner or Fatter? thinner
c) Richer or Poorer? same?

What do you wish you'd done more of?
● Relax
● Study
● Saving

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Stress...Cry

How will you be spending New Years?
In Chicago with Quint! <3

Did you fall in love in 2009?
Yerp

How many one-night stands?
Zero

What was your favorite TV program?
House, Lie To Me, Glee, Lost

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
yup!

What was the best book you read?
Beloved <3

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Street Sweeper Social Club

What was your favorite film of this year?
Paranormal Activity, Avatar, THE FALL <3

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Less fights.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Lazy

What kept you sane?
Quint, Andromeda..

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Paul Rudd. omg..

What political issue stirred you the most?
Obama.

Who did you miss?
Lisa?

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
I might need help

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"Remember those walls I built? Well baby they're tumbling down, didn't even put up a fight, didn't even make a sound. Its like I've been awakened, Every rule I had you breakin', its the risk that I'm taking, I ain't never gonna shut you out"

--
Will you be looking for a new job?
Yes. Fuck GameStop

Will you be looking for a new relationship?
Hell no.

New house?
Maybe an Appartment.

What will you do differently in 2010?
Be more motivated. Be more caring. Be less of a bitch. Try to control my emotions.
^- iawtc

New Years resolution?
None

Any trips planned?
Nope

Wedding plans?
Nope

Major thing on your calendar?
Nothing I know of

What can’t you wait for?
TOMORROW

What would you like to see happen differently?
My grades

What about yourself will you be changing?
be less of a bitch

What happened in 09 that you didn’t think would ever happen?
lots.

Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
Defs

Will you start or quit drinking?
idk

Will you better your relationship with your family?
I'll try, but its not really that likely.

Will you do charity work?
Probably not

Will you go to bars?
-not 21- QQ

Will you be nice to people you don’t know?
Probably

Do you expect 10 to be a good year for you?
Yes, this can only get better.

How much did you change from this time last year till now?
So much happier

Do you plan on having a child?
SOMETIME IN THE FUTURE??? NOT NEXT YEAR

Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
Yes!

Major lifestyle changes?
Not that I can think of

Will you be moving?
Nope~

What will you make sure doesn’t happen in 10 that happened in 09?
Fights, Bad Grades

What are your New Years Eve plans?
Chicago with Quint <3

Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
YES! For once haha

One wish for 10?
Please don't suck.

--

2009: A Dodgy Review Meme.

Lost a friend?
Yep

Stayed single almost the whole year?
Nope!

2009: Your Love Life

Did you break up with anyone?
No.

Did you get anything for Valentine's day?
No.

Did you meet anyone special?
Yesss

Did you fall in love?
Yes

Do you like someone right now?
Very much

2009: Friends and Enemies

Did you meet any new friends this year?
Yep!

Did you dislike anyone?
Yep

Did you make any new enemies?
Yerp

Did you resolve any fights?
Not really.

Did you grow apart from anyone?
Yeah :C

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
Nope

2009: Your BIRTHDAY!

Did you have a cake?
Yes!

Did you have a party?
Nope

Did you get any presents?
Yerp

If so what was the best thing you got?
Alice and Wonderland Unbirthday Tea <3

2009: All about YOU

Did you change at all this year?
Yez

Did you get your hair cut?
Yes :D

Did you change your style?
Not really

Were you in school?
Yup

Did you have a job?
Yerp

Did you drive?
Lots

Did you go on any vacations?
Yep

Would you change anything about yourself now?
Yes

Was 2009 a good year?
Second Half haha

Do you think 2010 will top 2009?
It can only get better!

2009

2009-12-30T23:20:43Z

I steal all of these from kobbie wtf

In 2009 I..
[x] broke a promise
[ ] fallen out of love
[x] lied
[x] went behind your parent's back
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[x] kissed in the rain (i think so anyway.)
[ ] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution (didn't MAKE a new years resolution?)
[x] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[ ] almost died
[ ] given up something important to you
[x] lost something expensive (well...it got stolen)
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were )
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] was never home on weekends
[x] got into a car accident
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[ ] had someone close to you die
[ ] had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[ ] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach
[ ] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[ ] made out in/on a car (kissed...not..made out)
[ ] kissed in the snow (probably will!)
[ ] celebrated Halloween
[x] had your heart broken
[ ] had a stalker
[ ] mooned someone
[ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
[ ] someone questioned your sexual orientation
[ ] came out of the closet
[ ] gotten pregnant
[ ] done something you've regretted
[x] painted a picture
[ ] wrote a poem
[x] ran a mile
[ ] shopped at Hollister or Bench
[ ] posted a blog on MySpace
[x] listened to music you couldn't stand
[ ] went to a sleepover
[x] laughed till you cried
[ ] laughed till you almost peed in your pants
[ ] visited a foreign country
[ ] cut in a line of waiting people
[x] told someone you were busy when you weren't
[ ] partied to celebrate the new year (PROBABLY WILL :D)

YAY I'm leaving to go visit Quint tomorrow!!!
At...9am. omg >>
Its a nice 3 hour drive to the airport, and then a 2 1/2 hour flight, and I'll be getting there at 3:15~
I'm really excited and really REALLY nervous, because as soon as I get there I'm going to be meeting his Family (obviously) and his best friend.
Who I'm already wickedly intimidated by. QQ
and then a New Years Eve Party.

...just a bit of stress.
Idk
It will be fun, but its one of those have never met any of these people things.
Just a little bit of stress what can I say.

FRIENDS ONLY

2009-07-11T22:51:27Z

Sorry any lurkers I might have, my journal is now
FRIENDS ONLY

so...if you want to be on my FList comment and let me know who you are? I'll probably add you.

"I want meaning"

2009-02-28T22:59:11Z

thiiiiiings bothering me more than they should.
completely unrelated to anything else ranted about previously.

Self-esteem issues are getting to me more than usual...(and damn, do they get to me usually.)
Idk i tend to avoid social situations like a plague, and the thought of going to play 'Zombies' with some friends on campus (its a nerf gun game, so, not a video game or anything) freaked me out and a genuinly DID NOT want to play, made me kinda sick thinking about it, but I gave in, and actually had fun, and think I got along with people alright
and then back in my dorm
on my own freaking hall, where I feel like i actually, generally get along with people. or atleast, people are indifferent towards me or don't mind me SINCE I DON'T ACTUALLY TALK TO THEM. fuuuuck.
so im in the hall fucking around with a nerf gun and this girl walks out, looks at me, then goes back in her room..and we hear (I didn't catch the first part, Q did..and confirmed it was about me) "...everyone ELSE on our hall is cool but her."
well fuck

...great.

Ramble Ramble

2009-02-26T01:53:48Z

Ok ok ok I don't like crossposting my journals, but I feel the need to restate this, since I'm that excited about it.

On April 24th I'm seeing Fall Out Boy, Cobra Starship, and Metro Station ~*in concert*~ and then the very next day seeing Blue October.
Holy Shit. I am so excited you don't even know ;O; WILL BE THE BEST WEEKEND EVER OMG.

Ok, so concert excitement aside.
Just got back from seeing He's Just Not That Into You.
I'd heard mixed reveiws, but really, i loved it. It was predictable in the best possible way and so real that it was great just freaking out (thankfull Erika and I were the only ones in the theater) "NO NO NO WHAT YOUR DOING oh god just leave D: D: D: don't do it oh god what"
But so really cheesy, but really really cute..fuck I really liked it.
I looooved the ending quote holy shit

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope."

I'm a big weirdo who adores horror movies like nothing else, and then really likes chick flics at the exact same time. My taste in movies is just as crazy as my taste in music, I literally listen to everything from Dir En Grey, to Keith Urban, to Lil Wayne, to Blue October...my music is on drugs. I always surprise my roommate with what I'm listening to...pahaha...
Anyway. fuck I'm rambling now.
I almost bought a ton of movies tonight, but settled on Angels in the Out Field No Country for Old Men and There Will Be Blood.
I was about 3 seconds away from also buying Meet Joe Black Field Of Dreams and City Of Angels. I'm trying to buy allt hese movies that my parents have, that I love, for my own collection, becuase I never think about it. :( I have soooo many movies though I'm really running out of room QQ
BUT BUT BUT tomorrow night some girls in my dorm n I are going to make nachos and watch Angels In the Outfield and its going to be so fun~

I was going to rant...
great now i don't even want to talk about it online.

Im thirsty.

2009-02-21T08:26:53Z

Guuuh..I swear.
Just when I think I'm starting to feel better. fuck.

anyway...I've drawn more during the day...

I feel weird saying that i haven't had this much fun drawing in a long fucking time, but its true facts.

FUCK GUYS ARE HARDER (thats what she said.) THAN I THOUGHT THEY WOULD BE QQ kim and keeko n trauma make it look so easy

I think this one is my favorite. ;m;

I'm having too much fun with this

2009-02-20T20:44:26Z

so...i wanted to do figure drawing..lifedrawing..type stuff

...i've only done two so far but im having rediculous amounts of fun ;o;

♫Letter From the Lost Days♫

2009-02-19T19:09:00Z

Two Memes in One~

ONE
Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

BIRDS
ok I am still completely in love with birds, I wish I was better at drawing them. TRUST ME i would be drawing them 24/7...its just so relaxing for me.
I still have the ornithology book that my .... sophmore......? year biology teacher gave me ha-ha... I've stopped with the whole...making bird people thing...but its still really fun to draw wings and feathers and the like.
I've kind of abandoned all those characters anyway. hmm... sad.

Saiyuki.
Saiyuki is still awesome, OK??? Its so cliche and cheesy lame AND I LOVE IT.
lmfao, god I watched the first season again last semester with my friend Ashley and remembered why i love it so much.
I still really wany to Cosplay Saiyuki characters ahaha. I think it would be SO MUCH FUN.
.....the rain always puts sanzo in a bad mood.
I swear, every time I watch Saiyuki I always wanna tell people the inside jokes Jill n I made while we watched it but no one elses understaaaandsss....i'm just gonna have to beat them all up and leave them behind a pillar.

3
I don't knooooow...........I started out as 13 (dreizhen) and then everyone just ended up calling me Drei for short (threeee) and I've kinda just stuck with it as an alias. if I try to go by another name no one ever knows who I am haha... but yeah, since I've used it as an Internet Alias for SO LONG its now what I put for my favorite number too. hmm.

Curly Red Hair
ITS MY HAIR OK?? yeah.  there is actually so much blond in my hair im surprised anyone can actually still consider it red. but whatever. yeah. its pretty curly, cannot help it. when it was longer it was like a goddamn lions mane lmfao.... but uh. idk i straightened it the other day and I/other people liked it a lot, so I'll probably be doing that more often (i.e., more than once every 6 monthes ahaha...)

BONFIRES
maaaaan I haven't had a bonfire in FOREVER i need to do that agian soon. :)
Ok so I live in the ~*middle of nowhere*~ my closest neighbor is half a mile away, and our property is HUGE...
so we have a fire ring down by the lake, (well, we've actually moved it closer to the house now *sad face*)
its fun to be down there during the summer just by the light of the fire (since there literally are no other lights) its just so cool becuase you can see the fireflies in the trees and its like a whole seperate night sky...
man...
i want to do that again now.

MEME TWO
1. List facts for 16 different people.
2. Don't reveal who they are.
3. ~~You can comment but don't answer to guesses. The idea is that no one knows who the facts are indicated to.~~ guess if you want to, but i probably won't confirm |D;
~~4. Tag three (3) people.~~

1. I am so grateful to you always being there for me...It seems so weird that i think I've only known you for like... a year or so. And even weirder that I've never met you face to face. YET I TELL YOU EVERYTHING...Seriously, you've become one of my best friends so damn fast and I know I can count on you for anything...you'll even stop playing WOW to talk to me ;m; <3 seriously...thank you.

2. I wish I could be better friends with you..seriously, you seem so cool. I'm happy just getting to draw around you and just read what you post, but I wish I had the nerve to actually start up a conversation and talk to you with out getting really really awkward like I always do whenever I try...

3. see 2.

4. see 2.

5. I'M SORRY I ALWAYS JUMP TO THE WORST CONCLUSIONS WHEN YOU TALK TO ME. I'm getting better about it I promise!! ;m; Really, I'm glad we're talking at all... we didn't talk for so long, and it makes me happy to realize you consider me a friend, at least a little bit :)

6. ...i'm sorry... Really... I don't mean to make you feel bad, or make you worry. I'm not used to people actually being worried about me...I just don't like talking about it...about anything...especially with you. I know its kind of pointless at this point, but I still have that mental block of i don't want to seem this weak even though its pretty obvious...augh.

7. Everytime you comment on something of mine I grin, seriously. your comments just always make me so happy. its so cool becuase its like...you're the ONLY one who has been with me my whole time online. from my 30 minute timelimit, to acceptance into college, to now. We don't talk near as much as we used to, but I think you realize how much I still value your friendship, and if you don't, you should. (this should be so obvious to the person its to aha <3)

8. I wish we talked more. I still get this big stupid grin on my face everytime you IM me, my roommate always points it out to me haha...I'm sorry I never comment on your entries, but you should know that I always read them. You know how much i love your writing.

9. I'm glad you still consider me a friend..I wasn't sure for a really long time.

10. I'm not sure what I think about you anymore...We were close for so long, and then... randomly, we just stopped hanging out. you still IM me all the time, but its always to bitch about something..I don't think you've ever actually asked how I'm doing, while on the other hand I could probably list every detail of your college experience. and stop fucking bragging about "oh i saved my self until marriage~"
you got married at 18. it doesn't fucking count. spew all your true love bullshit you dated the guy for 2 months, i'm calling a year.

11. I don't really get it. I hated you in highschool. I thought you were so godamn annoying and wanted to you just leave me aloooneeee... and now, somehow, I hang out with you more than most of my best friends? and I seem to trust you more.
sorry man, i still don't want you to touch me though. seriously. don't hug me.

12. Im sorry my mood swings are fucking up our friendship so much... I really...either never hear my phone since its on silent, or hear your ringtone, and can't bring myself to answer. I feel so bad about it, but I can't force myself to fix it. I don't want you to realize how messed up I still am.

13. You affected me for so fucking long. really, panicing when you were around. I think i'm finally over it. fuck you, fuck your shit, i still wish i could beat the shit out of you. But i'd rather just let it die.

................................i'm stopping at 13 i got nothing else.

Oh hey its my dorm room

2009-02-10T00:56:07Z

I finally...cleaned up my dorm room a little bit, so I figured Id take pictures.

yeah.

hooray cellphone pics! yeah. enter my room~
Final Fantasy 7 Crisis Core poster, I drew screaming mantis on my white board a few days agoo...uuh...that black thing is the hoodie i wear basically everyday. ..yeah

Micro-Fridge, roommates filing cabinate, my shitty little TV, my sneakers + sandles, DS case, wiifit balance board, PS2 control, empty Dr Pepper boxes |D fun stuff.

MY DVDSSSSSSSSssssssss and my books.... PS2, XB360, Wii. my ps3 is at home ;O; aaand bottom shelf is my roommates books.
yez.

The work space I never work in.
see: vaulttech bobble head, anime, PS2/PS:One gamessss...patapon..uh..nothing too interesting. chargers. lots of chargers.

aaaaand my bed. Im on the top bunk.
Silent Hill Homecoming poster and you should be able to tell the other two.
...uuuh....Zebulon my panda.......and a bag of cheetos.
yes.

so.
thats essentially it

HOW INTERESTING.

Yay Memes!

2009-02-02T21:01:19Z

stolen frooooom flashikins
memes are probably going to be the only reason i update this thing ahaha

iTunes meme!:

How many songs total: 1947
How many hours or days of music: 5.1days
Most recently played: Sweet and Somber Pidgeon Wings - Blue October
Most played: Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
Most recently added: I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

Sort by song title:

First Song: A.N.I.C. - Sum 41
Last Song: 88 - Sum 41

Sort by time:

Shortest Song: I'm Not Wearing Underwear Today - Avenue Q OST (0:29)
Longest Song: The Chicken Sandwich The Heckler And The Kabbash - Dane Cook (12:31)

Sort by album:

First album: Absolution - Muse
Last album: 200km/In the wrong Direction - Tatu

First song that comes up on Shuffle: Hindu Sad Diamonds - Moulin Rouge OST

Search the following and state how many songs come up:

Death - 31
Life - 32
Love - 71
Hate – 3
You - 193
Sex – 8

...life and death, a ton of that is from Good Charlottes albulm, "The Chronicals of Life and Death" ahaha.
but uh
hi guys.
i don't really have anything to say other than I'm doing some work with traditional media hooray!
Drawing Screaming Mantis (MGS4) since...shes all i seem to want to draw lately, so i figured, my drawing board + prisma colours might be a fun change of pace from these random as fuck animals and furries i've been paid to draw lately. xmx; augh.

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Everyone and thier mother is doing it so...

2009-02-01T21:54:05Z

COMPUTER VOYEUR MEME
█ Stop what you're doing.
█ Print screen your current desktop.
█ If you have Photoshop open, print screen.
█ If you have a music player open, print screen.
█ Pick a folder, open it, print screen.

TAKEN

2009-01-31T03:42:37Z

GOD I never...ever update this thing anymore, i guess I just use dA as my default journal ALL THE TIME idk what to even say here really????

I JUST GOT BACK FROM TAKEN I'll try not to spoil anything (even though its an action movie and should be PRETTY DAMN EASY TO CALL)
BUT FUCK
Liam Neeson is TOO GODDAMN AWESOME FOR ONE SCREEN. I love. that man.
I know its fictional and they're all supposed to just be ~*regular people*~ in movies but its always like...when Brad Pitt...or Ewan McGreggor...OR ANY RANDOM HOT ACTOR plays someone who was divorced or something its one of those "WHO IN THIER RIGHT MIND WOULD DO THAT" this was my thoughts on the begining on this movie. WHAT. WHAT. WHO THE HELL WOULD DIVORCE LIAM NEESON THEY"RE CRAZY
goddddd some of it was so absurd in the best only-ok-in-an-action-movie way. It was just GOOD.

Aaaand...upon leaving the theater my dad (yes i saw it with my parents, ITS A FREE MOVIE TICKET GET OUT i'm cheap and i don't mind seeing movies with them) stops and talks to someone, and its all "SO YOU REMEMBER MY DAUGHTER??? Mk, this is Richard Burr!"

so uh
apparently my dad is good friends with the NC Senator.
what.
why wasn't I informed.
and apparently i've met him before becuase he pulled the whole "you've grown so much!!!" thing.

But yeah
I don't really know why I'm posting this...I guess because I've been friending people on here and i feel all ~*weird*~ becuase i never update.

nothing really exciting happens in the life of drei anymore.

Look at me still talking when there's Science to do!

2008-03-31T17:12:27Z

SRAO Spam war.
so a bunch of generic crap.

HEIGHTENED EMOTIONS HAVE EFFECTED THE DMW

2008-03-28T19:39:05Z

ok so Crisis Core is absolute love wtf.

But i have to share this

So in CC limits are done using the DMW which acts like a slot machine type thing. and you're more likely to get limits when you have 'heightened emotions'
and this happened at times where like...Zack's about to raid a base, fighting along side Angeal, ect.

So then Zack finally meets Cloud. Nothing epic has happened in this cut scene. Cloud just introduced himself and they made fun of each others hometowns.
the cut scene ends
and what pops on the screen but "HEIGHTENED EMOTIONS HAVE EFFECTED THE DMW"

...i'm lame i know but i laughed really freakin hard.

Lets see how far we've come...

2008-03-16T04:42:45Z

Hey.

I'm actually working on something.

hmmmmm
I don't have anything to say really.
which is good because no one reads.

oh ps:
Final Fantasy 7 Crisis Core comes out the 25th how fucking excited am I.
NOW KOBA CAN'T TELL ME ZACK IS UNIMPORTANT!!! >|
he has his own game get the fuck out

doodles

2008-03-03T00:59:29Z

meeeh... some of these will probably go on dA at some point in a spam dump, but I'm not doing anything else here...

ok i uploaded this ^- on dA already, I DON'T CARE i really like it u___u

oh uh.. well.. guess thats all I've got.

I might actually do this for real.

2008-02-08T00:13:57Z

Even though I use my dA for most updating shit I don't think anyone really reads this.

So I'll probably do some real updates here.. since its pretty much rotting.

first update:
everything sucks.

Moar rambles

2007-12-17T02:20:48Z

Another thing that I just want to get down before it gets pushed out of my head by something eeelse...

Alright so Crytufc is immortal. He's lived for X amount of years (a long long long time). The problem is, his body is not immortal...due to shit that happened in the past. But every time he switches bodies (once they start to decay, which takes a really long fucking time due to his magic), the other persons memories are still there, due to you know. the mind. But at this point he's able to ignore everything that previously happened in the persons life and just keep his own memories.
Or you know
what he thinks are his memories.
The first couple of times he had to switch bodies, he didn't know how to block the other persons memories, so he ended up getting confused and actually forgetting details of himself.
Honestly at this point, even though he doesn't realize it, he's completely different than how he was before he was forced into switching bodies.
None of his early memories are actually his, what he remembers is his second hosts life. He actually doesn't remember his original body at all or any details of his life before. But he doesn't even know that he doesn't know. >_>

that one is remarkably shorter :D

CHARACTER RAMBLE 1

2007-12-10T00:29:00Z

OK, i've needed to get this written out for a while now. :'D

OK
so
Thorne and Chaos are from a world whose society is based around Gladiator like tournaments, you are born to fight in them and train for them until your parents decide you're ready to fight in them.
So unlike in ancient Rome, its not criminals and those condemned to death fighting in these matches. But still, its a fight to the death.
The one left standing lives, everyone else dies. </heavenly sword quote>
The reason this fight to the death is allowed is because of the religious views of the culture.
What they believe is that the life you are living right now is 'Hell' and only when you die of natural causes (i.e. you were the strongest around and died of old age), or when you die in a fight, you ascend to what would be considered to them as 'Heaven'.
What they believe is if someone was killed in a fight then they were obviously too weak to survive in this 'Hell' so the one who killed them is technically their savior, sending them to 'Heaven' so they don't have to suffer here anymore.

Suicide is a cultural no-no. It is considered to be the easy way out, and of course, there is no easy way out of 'Hell', so you would be forced to remain in 'Hell', being reincarnated here over and over again.
So going along with that, if someone dies protecting another person (i.e. jumping in front of a bullet) then that person would never ascend. They wouldn't remain in 'Hell', but they'd remain in the equivalent of Purgatory. The reasoning behind this is that you forced the weaker person, the one that would have died, into remaining in hell; and that is bad.

Since they believe that you ascend to 'Heaven' after death, you can imagine that bringing someone back to life would be very bad. They believe that if you bring someone back to life then you've torn them out of 'Heaven' and there is no way to return to that 'Heaven', or even to 'Purgatory'. What you've done is damned them to 'Hell', again through reincarnation. And of course, its a double edged sword, damning yourself by doing this 'unthinkable act'.

Because of this series of beliefs, its very common for parents to kill their children at a young age if they believe they are too weak to survive (though by present day society is so warped that they're often killed because they wouldn't do well in the fights, and the parents don't want to be shamed by their children).

But of course, as in every society, there are people who don't believe in this.

now getting into a little character history

Chaos, Thornes' elder brother, didn't believe any of that. Mainly because he'd met so many people from other worlds, and most of them told him how warped his society was.
But upon learning how much bullshit his own beliefs were he shunned every other religion, convinced they must be as bullshit as his own worlds, and decided that this was the only life they were ever going to have. There was no 'Heaven' or 'Hell', there was only now.
But he had to continue in the Fights as always, but he fought to win no matter what, although it made him sick to end others lives.
Eventually Crytufc found his way to this world and met Chaos. Chaos, terrified of death as he was, made a deal with Crytufc, that if Chaos ever died, Crytufc would bring him back, on the condition that Chaos would work for him for the rest of his renewed life (little did he know that would be for as long as Crytufc's immortality kept him going).

So along came the day where their (Thorne and Chaos, in case you forgot) father decided Thorne was never going to be fit to participate in the fights, and did what any 'sensible' (very drunk) parent would do, and decided to kill him.
Chaos realized what was going to happen and immediately stepped in, dieing in the process.

So Thorne, who still to this day follows his worlds beliefs, was 1) pissed at Chaos for "forcing him to remain in 'Hell'", 2) angry at himself for being so weak that his brother (who he knew didn't follow their 'religion') felt like he needed to be saved, and blamed himself for Chaos being 'damned to purgatory'.

So eventually Thorne ended up leaving his home world, and made almost a promise not to die until after the people he 'cared about' (i use those words lightly (glare) ) already died, that way he'd be in 'Hell' for longer than any of them...his way of punishing himself.

And Chaos... Like Crytufc promised, Chaos was brought back. And like Chaos promised, he is still working for Crytufc.

MRRRRRR.... this would be the first time I've typed out info on them
and i don't think anyones going to read it and i'm OK WITH THAT since really need it here for my own reference so I don't forget anything/mess anything up.

yeah.
its lame
you shouldn't read it.
(glare)

OK I'VE DECIDED

2007-11-19T02:51:50Z

Since no one reads this except MAYBE.... 2 people.
I'm going to post character ramblings here like Pirate does. *w*

...yes.

.......
starting when I'm not tired.

HM

2007-10-18T20:59:53Z

BAWWWWWWWW...
I need to do something about this ugly ass page :|